Spife Knockturn – Seven over Four

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1. maybe

I can’t seem to speak everytime you’re around. I don’t know why. I can’t  seem to breathe everytime you are near me. I don’t know why.
Maybe there’s a reason or maybe there is none. I don’t know why. Maybe you’re the one or maybe you are not. We’ll just have to find out.
Closer to you, I feel like I’m driving in a car with no wheels. Farther from you, I see your face reflected in the walls and the ceilings.

Maybe there’s a reason or maybe I’m just dumb coz I don’t know why. Maybe
you’re the one or maybe you are not. We’ll just have to find out.

Now you’re probably wondering if I am indeed talking about you. But don’t worry, coz you are correct in every aspect.

I can’t find the words to say that I secretly want you. I’ll just have to sing it.

I hope that you don’t misunderstand the words I’m saying. I want us to be friends. (gibberish)

2. timing

Why do I anticipate every move you make, every single day? Why do I wait for
you to pass on by without knowing what to do? Why do I do these things that I do not
want to?

I didn’t write a song in a while, but then you came along. I hope this makes you smile.

I wanna speak but I can’t say the things I have to say. I wanna let you know, but I can’t find the timing, so I’ll write it in a song and sing it for you.
You’ll have to understand that I’m not too good at words, so you’ll have to bear with me as I fumble with my mouth.
I’m not good at love songs but it’s all that i can do. Maybe I can write another one and sing it for you too.

3. don’touch

a. therapé

Is this the end of our evening sessions? Is this the end of our therapy? Is this the end of our past regressions? I was here but you left me.

Comfort, not consolation; remedy, and not a solution; understanding, not  forgiveness was what I wanted.

You gave them to me but what I received was another reason to cry. You gave to me but what I received was another reason to die.

I healed your wounds but you threw them back at me. I was left with nothing but a lot more misery.

Thank you for your time, you are one true friend,but I won’t mind if you won’t be with me the time I reach the end.

You will just add up to my pain.

But I’ll be there, when you feel like killing yourself again. Here’s my number, call me when you’re desperate. I need someone to tell me all their troubles. I never tell, he never knew you drank yourself to sleep that night. When you’re sick of your life, talk to me. I’ll give you another reason to live like you gave me a reason to die. I’ll give you a reason to smile like you gave me a reason to cry. I’ll swallow all your pain, so you could be alright.

b. give and take (some lies i told you)

It’s hard to give without wanting to take. You can’t give without getting hurt in any way. So from tonight, I will never give– just take everything from me. Love has left me scarred, bruised and broken. Life has made me what I am– crestfallen.
People made me hope, but all for nothing. It’s not their fault, it’s all my doing. I hate to think of someday for it may never come. They say that someday, I’ll finally find the one. But I won’t find a thing at all if I do not believe, coz everyone has turned their back on me.
Why did you ever cry on me?
Is this a trick of destiny? In stepping back, I tripped again, and now I’m fucked for all to see. It’s not your fault, it’s mine. It’s not your heart, it’s my mind.
I’m tired of tears, could you pull the trigger? It’s at my heart, wrapped around your finger.

c. bother

I will always love you, I will always be here in the dark. I will always need you. I have always been there from the start, waiting until you could dry away your tears, waiting until you could get over it.
I won’t bother you. Don’t worry, you won’t hear the things I have to say– I’ll throw them all away. I won’t bother you at all.
I will always love you, I will always be here when you cry. I will always need you. I will wipe that tear out from your eye, waiting until you could walk out on your own, waiting until you don’t want to be alone.
I have said goodbye, but I will always be here at your side. But I won’t bother you at all.

d. 7/4

“They rip your heart out of your ass.”

I don’t want a conversation, I don’t wanna talk. I don’t need your consolation or your attention. I have said goodbye to you, do things on your own! It’s so hard for me to just leave you all alone. But everytime I try to get near you, I just fall. Maybe I just wasn’t meant to be with you at all.

Each time in the dark, your face appears with stars. I don’t know what you’re thinking, but I know where you are. When I see you once again, I will force a smile, but in this song I’m crying, begging for your time.

You said that I was your friend, I know you are mine. But what the fuck am I
to think when you start to cry?!?! I will be your sleeping pill, I will be your rag,
I have been your scratching post, I have been your clown.

There are no regrets, but I never knew it would kill me like it’s doing now. No looking forward, coz I’ll stay in the past, where you’ll make me happy just by listening.

“Have a few drinks and come home.”

Each time in the dark, your face appears with stars. I don’t know what you’re thinking, but I know where you are. When I see you once again, I will force a smile, but in this song I’m crying, begging for your time.

4. The Last Song

Holding on to this phone, alone in the night. You didn’t even make sure if I was really alright.

You said you watch sad movies and you’d cry everytime the scene turns sad. I
listen to sad songs and try to understand that this is just the way some things will
have to end.

I got out of my mess, but I took the hardest way. I walked the road you paved and joined in your parade.

Now I’m at the top but at my lowest point. Does it make any sense? Do I disappoint? What did I do wrong? Did I misunderstand? Did I say anything? Did you give me a chance?

I never knew that you were the hardest way out. I never knew I could not do
without. I never knew I could help you out. I never knew you would sell me out.

How can you do this to your friend?

You know that this is not the end.

This is not the last song.